The bottom freakin' line is - You get what you put in - I did great last week counting calories and running, then the weekend came and I let social outings turn into a free for all when there was no reason I couldn't have made better choices.
It started Friday with a birthday celebration for my older brother. My mom made lasagna and I kindly asked her to make a salad so I would have something "healthier" to eat - not only did she make me a salad she also made me a piece of grilled chicken and green beans - I ate that while everyone else ate lasagna and I felt great. I woke up Saturday morning weighing in at 186 - I did good during the week! Then Saturday came and we went out with some of the husbands friends from work - I have a very bad case of social anxiety, I freeze up, I don't know what to talk about and I end up being quiet and uninteresting. So I often turn to alcohol to help loosen up and enjoy myself - only problem is, once I get going I don't know when to stop. We went to a "vodka bar" with a drink menu that looked like I was ordering off the Cheesecake Factory Menu - it was massive ... so I just started going to town and about 10 drinks later I am sure I had drank a weeks worth of calories in one sitting. Then Sunday came and we celebrated my youngest son's birthday (early) with my dad's side of the family. I bought a big cake with that wonderful buttercream icing and had no intentions on eating any - until I was cutting it and just couldn't resist.
I did not run all weekend ... the fact that I even lost a pound and a half amazes me ... I also felt like crap Monday because of all the crap I had put into my body.
So I started thinking today ... Why be upset with my results when I am only really half-assing this thing. It's been 4 weeks and I'm down 6.5 lbs ... What would happen if I just went balls to the walls and did this with everything I had in me? I know the results would be better. I know I would feel better. And then at least I could say it wasn't from lack of effort if the weight wasn't coming off.
I don't see why I can't just do this, become completely committed for 8 or 9 months, no exceptions, no "cheats", just 100% commitment until the weight is off and then and only then would I be able to relax a little with the way I eat ... what is 8 or 9 months out of my lifetime? - It's nothing! The "treats" and special foods will still be there, it is ok to say no to the foods I love, the world will NOT end!
I am done! I am done with the freakin teeter tottering of the scale, back and forth with the same 2 pounds ... It's time to make it or break it! Time to get it together.
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