With the warm weather usually comes the excitement of shorts, tank tops and flip flops. Swim suits and summer vacations. For me comes the reality that I still haven't gotten my shit together and I am still VERY uncomfortable wearing shorts, tank top, and swim suits - hell I don't even like wearing short sleeves. Yesterday it was so nice here in St. Louis and I pulled out a pair of shorts. I was able to get them on but I was definitely not happy with what I saw.
I hate that I have gone through so many summers not being happy and not being able to just wake up and throw on a pair of shorts and a tank and feel comfortable in my own skin. I see all the cute summer dresses and wish I could wear something like that but wouldn't be caught dead in one being the size I am now.
But I have made a decision, instead of chalking it up to a loss and saying well here goes another summer of sweating my ass off in jeans and t-shirts, I am going to start today to change the rest of the summers in my future. I may not be where I would like to be this summer but I can get closer to my goal and be where I want to be next year ... I refuse to roll over and say the hell with it.
I started back with my semi-clean eating today (I include a little yogurt and cheese). I loved the way I felt when I did the cleanse. I know what I need to do, just time to finally DO IT!! =) I'm ready!